peace...where are you?

Hello bloggers.

For so long I was in this season of life that I didn't feel like anything was happening, I felt my growth was at a stand still, as if I had reached a point of spiritual complacency...
Now a days, that doesn't seem to be the case at all.
I feel like I have been wrestling with God for days...
What is it that you want from me?
at one point I feel like you are saying one thing to me, then the next day, I feel completely different.
Maybe that is the problem...I am feeling too much.
Someone once taught me that emotions should be the response to decisions we make, not the entire reason that we make the decision in the first place...
Why have I allowed myself to forget that lesson for so long.
I am very confused, but at the same time excited, and humbled that God would be putting so much into molding and shaping someone like me.
No matter what I do, He'll never leave me.
I have decided I AM DONE. Done feeling so let down over what other people have done to cause me pain...bottom line is that we all have our different areas of struggle, and just because one person might not completely understand the other, doesn't mean the one is right and one is wrong. So, I am done worrying so much about the actions of those who affect me, instead I am going to worry about my actions, and how they affect myself and others. Instead of working from the outside in (which is what seems natural to me), I am going to start working from the inside out...

In other news...
I got tickets to the P. Diddy Superbowl party that will be held in Detroit on Friday night. Legitimately it is hosted by P. Diddy himself ... can you believe it? A special thanks to Brad for getting the tickets...and an even bigger thanks to Emily for being my beautiful, and amazing best friend.
Also, Saturday night, possibly the Maxim party, to watch my girl strut her stuff...
It's so crazy, how did Emily and I get invited to all this stuff...
anyways, that's exciting to me, pretty much a once in a lifetime opportunity, and I am always up for an adventure.

Also, pray for Brandon Hess' family...this is a really hard time for them, and I am sure that we can all relate somehow.

On a final note...the past couple days I have been confronted by all the hurt that is going on around me. So many people are experiencing things that I could never even imagine, so I pray that we could all humble ourselves, and not forget that no matter how bad we think we have it, someone esle may have it worse...and always be reminded of the truth that God will never give us more than we can handle. I know I need to hear that daily, so I hope that it is a blessing to you also.

Good night everyone. I love you.

(p.s. for some reason the time isn't right on what is says the post time was so the actual time right now is 1:45am! )