Sundays...

I love Sundays.
I feel that the best fruit is produced on Sundays.
Whether I am having fun after church going out to lunch with all my friends, or I am sitting at my house alone, just contemplating the sovereignty of God...Sundays are a time that I feel I really meet one on one with Jesus.
Today is a quiet day.
I find myself enjoying the silent times more than the noise lately. I feel in these silent times, I am finally grasping the clarity I've been seeking for so long.
How do I live in a way that my every breath can be a living sacrifice to my God?
Yesterday I made a huge sacrifice in my personal life. I really felt it was something God layed on my heart with a purpose. Now, 24 hours after a huge decision was set in stone, my heart aches...All I can do is pray and say, "God, I am yours."
Sacrifice is necessary. I need God to know that I am His. Or maybe, since God already knows everything, I needed to do something to say to myself, "I am Gods."
Today, in the quiet, I find myself wrestling. So many things are stirring inside of me, and yet I have peace.

Here my prayer oh Lord...
Sometimes you ask us to do things that we feel are the most painful thing we could do. I don't understand all the time. But my ignorance is bliss in this situation...For I give the things that I love most over to you, because although I love to take care of my the most precious things in my life, I have to trust God that you will take even better care of them.

Just know if sacrifice were easy, it wouldn't be called a sacrifice.

My blog has definitely reached a more vulnerable point that I ever intended it to...but I pray that my struggles and growing pains minister to all of you that read this.
I love you more than you'll ever know.